I’m doing a
lot of meditating these days, with the help of Headspace. Twenty minutes or so, every morning, sitting
in my favourite chair. Often with a dog
curled up near me.
The focus of
the exercise is very much on my breathing. Not trying to alter it, or breathe
in any particular way. Just observing it. Noticing each time I breathe in and
out, how my chest moves out and in, the rise and fall of my belly. How each breath
is always just a little bit different from the next one. Some are quicker, some
slower; some are deeper, some shallower.
The pauses between the breaths: how the pause after the out-breath is usually
longer than the pause after the in-breath. A wisp of air on my upper lip.
Maybe
counting each breath, one in, two out, three in, four out…..up to ten, then
starting over again. Or maybe not, maybe just letting each breath come and go. Resting
my attention on the breath. Observing, watching, noticing, witnessing, all in a
relaxed sort of way. Nothing too intense.
Sometimes it
feels like I’m sitting on the sea shore, watching the waves coming in to land
on the beach. They keep on rolling. They are endlessly different, and endlessly
fascinating. And you don’t have to do anything
about waves. They just happen.
You might
think it is boring, but it isn’t. It’s gentle, kind and enjoyable. I often find
I’m smiling quietly to myself.
It’s
important, in a subtle, understated sort of a way. It creates more space for me. It puts
other things, my everyday busyness and concerns, into perspective. And if I do
get hassled during the day, I can take a few seconds out, just to breathe. I’m
finding all those things I have to do, somehow may not be as important, as
urgent, as serious or as worrying as I thought they were going to be.